I was away last week and missed the opportunity to talk about my One Little Word on the last Tuesday of the month. I’m doing it today because 1) my blog, my rules and 2) I really didn’t want to skip a month of recapping my journey with Open.
Up until now this word has challenged me in some pretty major ways. Grief. Pandemic. Trauma. I was getting to the point where I felt like being Open meant pain.
Now, though, I think I have perhaps turned the corner with this word. I don’t want to jinx myself but I think that Open is finally starting to work for me in a way that feels exciting and full of opportunity. It’s kind of amazing, frankly. I don’t cringe when I consider the word now. I don’t roll my eyes and wonder what awfulness is coming my way by being Open.
This change in my attitude towards Open was brought about by a very simple thing: the latest field guide from Modern Daily Knitting. It’s called Open and I laughed right out loud when I read the announcement. It’s rather perfect, honestly, that a word that has been so challenging for me could be completely reversed by considering it in terms of knitting lace.
Yesterday, when I sat down to write this post, I looked back on my monthly posts about Open, just as I do every month. And I was struck by a sentence I wrote way back in January.
I . . . feel strongly that being open means watching and waiting for things to come to me in their own time.
So that’s my plan for the next few months with this word. I’m watching and waiting. And trusting that the things that are going to come to me are to teach me lessons. To help me grow. To show me new ways of living and loving.
And I’ll be knitting some lace, too.