It’s the 4th Tuesday of the month and that means it’s time to join up with Carolyn and share how I’m doing with my 2021 One Little Word: Create.
My update this month will be slightly different than what I’ve been doing since I haven’t done Ali Edward’s prompt yet. I fully intend to do it, but circumstances lately have relegated it to the back burner. In fact,most of my creative energy has been relegated to the back burner lately.
I’ve been thinking about that a lot and wondering what to do about it. And here’s the thing . . . having the desire and drive to create comes from a place of growth and in order to be in a place of growth you’ve got to have a lot of other things in place, too. It’s like Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs . . . you can’t get to the place of self-actualization (creativity, in this particular scenario) if you haven’t already had your basic physical and emotional needs met. Now, I’m not saying my needs aren’t being met, but I am saying that the chronic pain I’ve been living with for this last little while has sort of sapped my creative energy and kept me at the bottom of the hierarchy of needs and it’s been a struggle to move towards the top.
In all honesty, this has been a really valuable lesson. Not the pain, because that just sucks, but the realization that being able to create is not automatic but is, instead, a process that comes from a place of privilege. It has also pushed me to consider ways to create that don’t involve art or words on a page or something tangible and that, interestingly enough, is why I chose this word in the first place. Now, don’t get me wrong, I love the prompts that come from the class each month, but sometimes I think they make it easy to focus on the doing and not the feeling. Turns out, even if I can’t do, I can still feel. And what I want to feel is authentic and purposeful in this life I am creating daily.
I do have to point out, before I close, that I can’t help but notice the deep irony of my word choice and circumstances once again. In 2020 my word was open and the world, my world, literally closed down. In 2021, I chose this word create and my ability to create (at least with yarn and needles) was taken away in this last quarter of the year due to some physical limitations I had no way of predicting.
I think that I need to consider my 2022 word very very carefully.