I am completely verklempt at the outpouring of support from all of you. I knew there would be comments and concern and caring. I knew you would all respond to my news with kindness. But I had no idea how much better it would make me feel. I have this image of the world in my head with glowing beams of light coming from the places where you all live to the place where I am. And that place where I am? It’s glowing with the brightest light I’ve ever seen due to all of you. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart for every comment, every word of encouragement and understanding, every expression of concern and love. It truly means more to me than you could ever realize.
The wake is tonight from 5 until 8. The funeral is tomorrow morning at 10. My dad had everything planned, all I really had to do was okay it all, which made things quite simple and easy for the entire family. Maybe I’m being naive and underestimating my emotions at this point but I feel okay.
Nevertheless, keep sending those beams of light, would ya? I have a strong suspicion they are what’s carrying me along.
Cece Said,
{{HUG}}
You are in my thoughts…
liz Said,
Beaming away.
(Must not spoil emotionally supportive message by wanting to add “Scotty” at the end of the sentence.)
(Must remember that even though a smart aleck, I am still thinking of you and yours.)
Liz K. Said,
At my dad’s wake, as person after person came and shook our hand and hugged us, I thought that this was Dad’s way of being with us. It was as if, “I can’t be here for you, but here is this person who I touched in life. He can be here for you today. And here is someone else who cares about you. They are here for you. And this person is someone who I helped once. I helped her and now she can help you.” It was seeing karma in action, and incredibly comforting.
You do not need to reply. You have enough to do. Just know that I am here with you.
jenifleur Said,
Consider the beams continuous! Oh my I feel for you. I’ll be thinking of you all day tomorrow, for I know that it will be a long, draining day. I’m wishing strength and love for you throughout.
margene Said,
Beams of light…what a lovely way to think of friendships. Jen is right…it will be a draining day. Make sure you take time for yourself afterwards and relax a bit.
Manise Said,
Continuing to send you endless Beams of Love. Know you are always in our thoughts and prayers as you go through the last rites of saying farewell to a loved one. Hugs…
Karen Said,
It’s funny – we know how wonderful and supportive the knit blogger community is, but they still never fail to overwhelm you and greatly exceed your, well, expectations isn’t the right word . . . but I can’t seem to think of the right word now. Anyway, I will continue to send all my beams of light to your and your family. Take care of yourself. Big hugs from me.
Rachel H Said,
Continuous beams, my friend. Feelings are strange things at times like this. Sometimes they’re okay, and then boom, overwhelming. Take care of yourself. And on that note, I’ve been meaning to tell you how glad I’ve been to see your comments around blogland this week. It was good to see you taking that time for yourself, to keep visiting.
jillian Said,
Beams shooting your way
Blogland can be a pretty cool place!
It’s good that he had arrangements made. It would make things much less stressful.
Hope the next two days goes as well as possible.
Jess Said,
*hugs* and love
) I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow and sending you strength, too 
)
Scout Said,
*arms around you and hugs tightly*
There. I hope you felt that.
Laura Said,
Add another beam to the fray.
I’m terribly sorry for you and your family’s loss.
Monica Said,
*Hugs* and sending good thoughts.
Lolly Said,
Amazing outpouring. This is a great place!
Continued thoughts going your way, C. Best wishes to you and all of the family.
Mindy Said,
As long as you want them, the beams are yours.
melanie Said,
Chiming in a little late here, C. But I’m thinking of you and sending you Big Beams of Light.
Chris Said,
Got my high beams aimed right at ya. Thanks for the beautiful interpretation of support.
--Deb Said,
Yep. There’s nothing wrong with a little (lot of) extra light. So glad to help!
Leah Said,
As many beams as you need, dear, for as long as you need them!
Be well.
Susan Said,
Sending more love your way. The fact that your dad had everything planned is truly a gift. You can focus on family, your emotions…things to help you get through the toughest parts of grief.
Debbie Said,
I think it’s perfectly okay to feel okay, Carole. He made those arrangements just for you, to make it easier. I guess it’s his way of taking care of you guys for as long as he possibly could.
Warm thoughts and a thousand beams of light to you and yours.
Ann Said,
Today would have been my dad’s birthday — we lost him 6 years ago. I’m walking with you tonight, Carole. Take care of you and yours.
Karen Said,
I’m sending you a big cyber hug on my beam Carole.
Kelly Said,
I’m keeping you in my thoughts! Take care Carole!
kristi and otis Said,
I believe there is something truly something special with knitting beams and vibes – know that some are coming from our household!
Emily Said,
Carole, I have been thinking of you although I haven’t been able to write before now. My father in law also passed away this week. I have spent the past few days doing mundane things, cooking and just trying to take care of my husband’s family. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs and beams and lots of love, Emily
Kat Said,
Take care of yourself and your family. Family (near, far and internet) is what gets us all through the hard times.
Birdsong Said,
I will be thinking of you right straight through and picked up a card to mail, so when you get a chance, email your post address. Hugs and lots of them!
BigAlice Said,
Oh Carole, your post made me cry. I’m just glad to help you feel better during the hard times. Peace to you and your family. Carrie
Laura Said,
Take good care Carole. I’m thinking warm comforting thoughts and saying prayers of peace for you and your family. Many hugs for you all.
Emily Said,
I am like a laser. And I am sending hugs your way.
maryse Said,
i’m not a hugger but know that i’m thinking of you.
Laurie Said,
I know it helped me in my time of problems. I’m sending more healing light in your general direction. You deserve only comfort and peace.
meg Said,
I am thinking of you.
Leslie Said,
I’m just catching up on the news…sending prayers and light your way!
Becky / Knitting Interrupted Said,
At my dad’s funeral I was really overwhelmed at the people who shared tidbits with me and told me how much they respected him. It made my heart feel warm and helped so much. I’m sure tomorrow will be really hard. Watch for those beams of light. We will be sending them everywhere you go.
hugs.
Judi Said,
Funny thing, I have thought of the blogs I read – including yours, to be beams of light into MY life. Grieving is hard work, let all those who wish you well help you with it.
Debi Leshin Said,
I’m so sad to hear this Carole. I’m sending comfort to you and yours and keeping you in my thoughts.
Debi Leshin Said,
I’m so sad to hear this Carole. I’m sending comfort to you and yours and keeping you in my thoughts.
Frani Said,
Oh Carole thats so beautiful.. it’s true.. good feelings can reach amazing distances in a second. All my bright beams pointing towards you now. Hope they can help you through this days.
love,
Frani
Kristina Said,
Channeling my light towards you
Kathleen Said,
Hugs and beams to you.
carole Said,
I missed your original post, but I will be keeping you in my thoughts, carol.
Rachel Said,
It never ceases to amaze me how fabulous and supporitve the knitblogging commnunity is. I’ll be thinking of you and your family during this difficult time, and sending good wishes your way. Take care of yourself.
Annie Said,
Beams of Love…what a great way to put it, and a perfect photo to illustrate it. I will be thinking of you and wishing you and your family strength in getting through this tough time. When my dad passed not too long ago, we kept saying “Dad would have loved this!” All his friends and family gathered, telling the stories of his life. It’s hard for the ones left behind, but it really is a celebration of life. Take care, and be good to yourself!
Ruth Said,
Still thinking of you Carole. I love the beams of light analogy and the photo is perfect. Hope all goes well.
SpiderWomanKnits Said,
Oh Carole,
Jess told me last night that you lost your father. My deepest condolences to you and your family as well as an outpouring of love.
*Big Hugs*
Take care of you and yours.
Much love,
Abi
Teyani Said,
always, dear Carole.
fabulous photo of the power of love.
many hugs to you.
Nancy Said,
Here’s a bit of light from the Bronx!
Vicki Said,
I have had reason to feel those glowing beams of light — “verklempt” (or some variation) doesn’t even come close, does it? This is truly “feeling the love.”
All my love and beams of light — from me to you. Take care, Carole.
Chris Said,
Beams and hugs to you! And licks from Chaos.
Kirsten Said,
Sending my beams your way.
Lucia Said,
I send you beams and virtual chicken soup and cat snuggles. (Virtual cat snuggles come without hair. Much neater.)
Judy Said,
Carole, my thoughts are with you. Thanks for sharing your beautiful insights.
Angelia Said,
Continuous beams & hugs are being sent your way. Take care of yourself. My thoughts & prayers are with you & your family.
pj Said,
Beams of love and good thoughts and prayers, Carole.
pj
Kellee Said,
Oh hon. I know it’s late in the game, but know that we’re thinking of you.
Stephanie Said,
I don’t see any brown in that picture. And you know that the light I’m sending your way is brown. Since I’m sending it, it must just be hidden by all the pretty colors. Makes sense to me. Hugs.
Jessica Said,
Just getting around the blogs and saw your sad news. I’ll definitely be keeping you in my thoughts.
elizabeth Said,
I never ever know what to say when I hear about things like this. If I could, I’d give you a hug and make you some tea and cookies.
Jackie Said,
Oh Carole, I just read the sad news
Hang in there and big hugs and I’m sending thoughts of chocolate and dirty martinis and friends with yarn your way.