I don’t intend to turn my blog into a “my kid left for college and this is how I’m adjusting” thing but I imagine you probably want to know how things are going. Let me tell you first of all that Hannah is doing great. She is making friends and settling in and learning her way around campus. She has texted and called regularly and knowing that she is happy has made this much easier for me. I miss her but I know she’s growing and changing and learning and that’s what is important.
And so . . .
Monday night I set the table for two. I have done this many times before as Hannah has a pretty active social life and is often not home for dinner. And yet, this time, it felt different. It felt weird. It felt small and sort of pathetic. Family dinners have been such an important part of our lifestyle and suddenly my family (at least the one that I prepare meals for) is only made up of one other person. No more big casseroles and roasts for us, now it’s small portions and half servings and I don’t know what I’m going to do with all those huge bags of spaghetti sauce in the freezer.
So I lit a candle to make it feel special and I reminded myself that I’d be saving money on grocery bills. I thought about how I can cook things like pork chops without having to endure the complaints. We can go out if we want and we can skip dinner altogether if we want and we can even have ice cream for dinner if we want.
Maybe it’s not all bad, this smaller family thing.